Home maker - Lyf is not tat easy..:P

Its been a while that I have written something and now I think this is going to be my saviour. Some people really don't have time to spend and I have all time on earth but still don't know what to do.

It was after we (my hubby and me) returned from Auckland that we decided that I need to take care of my health and take up my treatment at the earliest. When we began to work out a plan, it so happened that we had to move to Coimbatore and start a new chapter of our life there. But it wasn't that easy as both of us were working for the same company. So we decided that I will quit first on health grounds and move to Coimbatore and slowly he will join me. The idea sounded so practical, the PRACTICAL ME :( agreed on it immediately. I resigned from my job immediately for the first time in my career of 10 years without an offer in hand. But as you know it was my health on priority so, I thought i will face it.

The day came when I was relieved from my job and came home with the enthusiasm of taking up the Role of Home maker and become a perfect wife. Now comes the real true story

Day 1: All excited to make breakfast, send Hubby for work, cook and wait for him to come for lunch. Here he comes, both of us eager to see each other. It was after 14 months of being with each other 24 hours a day now we were separated by time :( He came home and we had lunch together. We were both missing each other and he spent some time with me and returned back to office. Had a nap and got up in the evening and started with my dinner making chores etc.

Day 2: Same start, finished cooking in the morning itself. Started to clean our room. It was really messy, think I made it a lil better now. My dear comes home for lunch. today he was busy at office and so had lunch quickly and returned soon. Had a nap and my evening chores began.

Day 3, 4, 5 - It went on as usual and there was no change. Sleeping became my routine(omg that was something I wanted to avoid from the beginning) But guess I never knew what to do. I started getting restless and wanted to get back to work. Started applying for jobs, checked with my frenz can't stay at home.

Should start blogging again or should I start to paint or should I go to GYM. What should I do. I have no idea and am really waiting to change this routine.

Though I enjoy the role of home maker in more ways than one, it is just that I want to be with my hubby 24 hours all over again and not be alone at home. Want to work rather than sleep and kill my time.

My first painting

This is my first ever painting.. I have always wanted to do some extra-curricular stuff right from my schools days. We used to have SUPW classes where they used to ask us to do embroidery, lots of craft work etc, you know what I used to do- learn how to do them, come home teach my mom and used to take them to class the next week completed. The teacher says "Wow Srija, its very pretty". I used say "Thanks Mom, I love you so much" within me..My mom was too good in all these. she used to do everything for me for my next class. I'm so happy about that in class when the teacher praises me ...:-) but never once did I take the pains to do them. So was the Biology diagrams which my mom used to draw so well, that I always get the compliments and be proud off.. I cannot even finish reading a novel because of my impatience.. But lot of my friends were gifted with the extra talent and were very good at all these especially painting,mehendi, doll making etc. Seeing them, I used to think that I must try this at least once.

Last week I was so tempted when I went to my friend's place, where she was doing a painting, which seemed pretty interesting and simple too. It had the drawing on canvas, and the paints and the guidance was also given as to where to paint which colour... I told her to teach me how to do it and she taught me how it needs to be done. That was a simple poppy flower and very pretty one too.. You know what I did not have the patience to complete that and half way through I gave it to her and went to sleep to glory.. The lazy me again.. Then we went shopping that evening to Walmart and there in the arts section I saw these paintings stuff sold, i asked her, shall i get this and try. She said yeah sure... and it was written on it for Intermediate people.. I took it as if I knew basics of painting and was now that I'm an intermediate level painter.. he he he very funny naa... I went home and opened it immediately and to my shock it was so difficult with narrow lines and multi colours and even some mixed colours.... I again lost hope of doing something.

I said to myself - "Sri, you are again going to lose..." But, no I did not want to lose..I did not want to give up...I want to win...After all this is something I should do to learn to have patience... Friends... it was Saturday evening around 6 p.m. I started to paint.. Lot of mess lot of stress.. Could not sit in one position but I could not give up right So sat there and tried hard to complete. It was 10p.m. half completed ... Long way to go I thought. I needed rest so went to sleep. Next day morning woke up at 10, had break fast and sat again to complete my painting... "Sri never lost her spirits...she had to complete it" and then again I had to break in between for lunch.. I'm still painting with a movie going on, watching movie and painting... multitasking.... he he he... But finally it was around 7:30 in the evening I completed this.... "Gosh sri, you are amazing" I thought. You can do anything if you had the mind to do it was what my inner soul was screaming loud at me...

I knew it that I just needed to be determined to do something and I will.. I guess my first painting was done as well as my first lesson to be confident and determined to achieve anything I wanted was also learnt.

Macbook for my dear

Of late I think I got to like this Apple Macbook, greatly influenced by my love who is a real Apple fan... I have never liked or used Apple notebooks before. But for the last one month I have been marketed by him so much that I think I have started to like that. That too to such a large extent that i bought one to be gifted to him...Sooo nice naa...

But I must admit that it has a class of its own. The white colour Macbook which I bought is 2.4Ghz, 2GB Ram and looks really classy and stylish. I did not even know how to use, the keyboard had different keys, the mouse pad was different and everything looked so different and interesting. I bought it from the net after so much of R & D and checking out the various configuration etc. It was shipped to my friends house as it would be easy to collect as she stays at home. Finally i got the parcel the day before and I was strictly instructed by my love that i better open it in front of him through the video camera(thanks to the technology, he saw me opening the parcel live ;-)) He had already seen various videos of how people opened the macbook that he was constantly narrating how I should be opening the parcel. To some extent I got irritated even because he was so concerned when I was opening the box or taking it out that he kept saying - Take it slowly, be careful etc. as if I never knew how to- :-)

But when I opened the box and finally took it out, I was amazed. It looked awesome... And then I switched the power on. What interface it had - was just amazing. It had so many nice features in it like the Dashboard, spot light and finder etc which were very unique. The windows were blended with the desktop and the Menu of the window just appeared as if it was present on the desktop. It was so different from our standard Windows. The close, maximise and minimise button were present on the left and the window did not close unless we selected the Quit from the Menu, it just stayed alive in the background. I never knew all these until I was demonstrated by my love. He kept telling me stuff like an excited child who has got some new toy, sri try this, try that.... but was a very new and nice experience on the whole.

Hmmmm that made me a Apple fan very soon. Thanks to my love you introduced me to the Apple world and inspired me with such a great product. Although I was impressed with Ipod earlier it was not so exciting as now when I own an Macbook and all the more when you do it for ur loved one...

Thanks dear.. This is for you.....

Lonely in the place i always wanted to be

It was my dream come true when I landed here a dream that came true after 11 years... To come to US. But you know when I reached here i felt the loneliness in me.. far from everyone I love- my family, my friends.. Not sure why I came so far.. what I had to achieve by doing this...



But trust me I had always thought the whole of US to be like New York skycrapers, fast life high tech... but unfortunately i reached a place Madison for those who don't know where I'm which is freezing cold and a typically village..Has nothing at all except for snow & cold weather.... Yeah I reached in end of Feb and so people say that it will be better in Summer but good thing is that I will return to mera Bharat Mahan by then... And above all the process and procedure for getting even the silliest of things - like cell phone, bank account man everything is a pain.. Now I realise life is so easy in India, get a simcard at any small petti shop without much problems, open a bank account in any bank around.. that y india is lots lots better..

Yeah may be i need to go around places like Chicago, New york, Los Angeles to see real good places but not in mood to all these.. So now that makes my trip all the more worse....

Amma i love you

Like for every child, their Mom is the best in the world. The same applies to me. Me being the eldest, I should say I have always been her darling... She loves me so much that everytime she hits me or hurts me she crys.. sooo sweet naa.. thats my cute mom...

Let me tell you, my child hood days i was so obedient that my mom every evening would dress me up and i used to stand in the balcony and be there for sometime(my mom used to give me timings to play) and then get back home... you know she never likes me going to other houses and one cannot imagine tha amount of beatings i must have got on various situations. even she doesnot like me gettin close to anyone(hey u know she's very possessive about me) she once even kept me inside house for couple of weeks just because i used to go to my neighbour aunty's house frequently and they liked me a lot...this is when i was 4-5 yrs old.

She always used to do even the small thing for me with utmost care be it getting me dresses and jewellery for me used to be just awesome... she used to get me the best always... slowly this relationship between us bonded as I went to college and started working we were more friends... we did crazy shopping and i took her whereever she wanted.. was nice fun...

but you know wat she has always given me all the love on earth and now I hurt her real bad.. i did what she never expected from me..she cried real bad.. she was terribly hurt... seriously i never wanted to hurt her but unfortunately i did just that.. i wish i have a chance to prove to you mom that I love you and just want to make you happy... i can't think of you ever hating me so pls don't hate me..

Amma, I love you... You are my inspiration.. Atleast I wish I can be a mom like you... I always wanted you to be proud of me always but i know u no longer are.. But I promise i will gain that trust in you again...

I love you Mom... Just Love you..

Ende manasu

My first ever public scribbling... Though this is my third attempt to start writing a blog (guys my earlier 2 attempts failed miserably), I'm determined not to fail this...

Actually want to scribble everything that comes to my mind and guess thats how the name of my blogger evolved..

Hope at least I'm able to give deliver some good work thats give some nice thoughts, some good information etc.. Anyways have started blogging and hope to do some good job.

Lemme wish myself the very best.. Hehehe