Lonely in the place i always wanted to be

It was my dream come true when I landed here a dream that came true after 11 years... To come to US. But you know when I reached here i felt the loneliness in me.. far from everyone I love- my family, my friends.. Not sure why I came so far.. what I had to achieve by doing this...



But trust me I had always thought the whole of US to be like New York skycrapers, fast life high tech... but unfortunately i reached a place Madison for those who don't know where I'm which is freezing cold and a typically village..Has nothing at all except for snow & cold weather.... Yeah I reached in end of Feb and so people say that it will be better in Summer but good thing is that I will return to mera Bharat Mahan by then... And above all the process and procedure for getting even the silliest of things - like cell phone, bank account man everything is a pain.. Now I realise life is so easy in India, get a simcard at any small petti shop without much problems, open a bank account in any bank around.. that y india is lots lots better..

Yeah may be i need to go around places like Chicago, New york, Los Angeles to see real good places but not in mood to all these.. So now that makes my trip all the more worse....

Amma i love you

Like for every child, their Mom is the best in the world. The same applies to me. Me being the eldest, I should say I have always been her darling... She loves me so much that everytime she hits me or hurts me she crys.. sooo sweet naa.. thats my cute mom...

Let me tell you, my child hood days i was so obedient that my mom every evening would dress me up and i used to stand in the balcony and be there for sometime(my mom used to give me timings to play) and then get back home... you know she never likes me going to other houses and one cannot imagine tha amount of beatings i must have got on various situations. even she doesnot like me gettin close to anyone(hey u know she's very possessive about me) she once even kept me inside house for couple of weeks just because i used to go to my neighbour aunty's house frequently and they liked me a lot...this is when i was 4-5 yrs old.

She always used to do even the small thing for me with utmost care be it getting me dresses and jewellery for me used to be just awesome... she used to get me the best always... slowly this relationship between us bonded as I went to college and started working we were more friends... we did crazy shopping and i took her whereever she wanted.. was nice fun...

but you know wat she has always given me all the love on earth and now I hurt her real bad.. i did what she never expected from me..she cried real bad.. she was terribly hurt... seriously i never wanted to hurt her but unfortunately i did just that.. i wish i have a chance to prove to you mom that I love you and just want to make you happy... i can't think of you ever hating me so pls don't hate me..

Amma, I love you... You are my inspiration.. Atleast I wish I can be a mom like you... I always wanted you to be proud of me always but i know u no longer are.. But I promise i will gain that trust in you again...

I love you Mom... Just Love you..

Ende manasu

My first ever public scribbling... Though this is my third attempt to start writing a blog (guys my earlier 2 attempts failed miserably), I'm determined not to fail this...

Actually want to scribble everything that comes to my mind and guess thats how the name of my blogger evolved..

Hope at least I'm able to give deliver some good work thats give some nice thoughts, some good information etc.. Anyways have started blogging and hope to do some good job.

Lemme wish myself the very best.. Hehehe